“This
particular artwork is lacking in detail, the perspective is unusual and there
does not seem to be a strong focus but it is light and draws in the eye, there
is something captivating yet indescribable about the piece”. If my life was art
I think this is what an art critic might say.
Often
everyday life sucks the air right out of my lungs, the weight of responsibility
is heavy on my shoulders and I get exhausted thinking about what needs to be
done, before I have even done anything. I
get so bogged down in and consumed by what I think I ought to be doing and this,
along with the guilt of not doing most of it, has consumed most of my life to date.
Recently
I have found it necessary to strip my life right back to the core, which for me
is God, family, love and relationships.
I am struggling with the process.
I feel lazy and irresponsible dropping off all my commitments but I
genuinely feel they were distracting me from what is truly important, the joy
of living. All I want to do is praise and
worship my heavenly Father; nurture, recognise and enjoy Mother Earth and love
my husband, children, family and friends with all my heart. For me, these things require all my time and
effort.
So,
as I sit here in my pyjamas at 8:20am, my children play noisily on the deck, my
husband is driving his beat up old tractor around his paddock just because he
can, the washing machine is going, the breakfast dishes are stacked in the
sink, the sky is blue, the air is warm, the birds are singing and I am going to
go and plant trees along our driveway. I
will try not to think about all the other things I should be doing, everything
that needs to get done next week, what I will cook for dinner, what people
would think if they came to visit right now, all the things I would love to
have and I will try to block out the insecurities, the fears, the worry and
just live in the moment. I will
appreciate and recognise all the blessings that surround me, right now.
If
I can learn to do this with every minute than my life might resemble art, and
wouldn’t that be magnificent. I know my
life has been created by an amazing artists on a spectacularly amazing canvas,
so what am I waiting for? What do you
think, does your life look like art?
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